Jeremiah 29:11 is probably my favorite verse. "For I know the plans I have for you"---this is the Lord's declaration--"plans for your welfare,not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope"
Remembering this during a time of hardship is difficut sometimes, but most of the time this is my weapon of choice against the devil when i feel like he is trying to discourage me... & boy does he know how to weasel his way in there sometimes and get my hopes all up only to laugh in my face.... stupid devil... he honestly thinks he can win my heart over... Im speaking on the topic of wanting babies..;)
i can want all day long but until God's timing is right for Reid and I we will enjoy our time with just one beautiful little miracle, Nati Marie. I have been with Nati since she was about 1 year and 1 month old... & that makes it easier for both of us im sure because she hasn't really known a life without her Dani and never will--- this little girl makes my world go round, she is nothing short of a blessing from God... Reid tells me all the time that i only married him for Nati or that he never has to worry about me divorcing him because he knows I'd never risk losing Nati ;) smart man huh!? :P joking aside, she is the light of my life other than him and of course Ollie...
Backstory:[not meant to be a sob story] but due to a tubal pregancy in 2008 i only have one fallopian tube (good ole lefty) and have been told that it might be a little more difficult to get pregnant and then in 2010 Reid and I suffered a miscarriage at 8 weeks... God has plan, I am sure of this, and my faith lets me know that He will give me a beautiful son or daughter someday [soon preferably, can you tell sometimes i am impatient] but He will just like He gave Sarah & Abraham a son at 90 & 100 years old.... Faith is such a small word for such a big thing... Hebrews 11:1 "Faith is the reality of what is hoped for, the proof of what is not seen." I preach this on the daily to my husband, "Just have faith, even faith as small as a mustard seed & God will do amazing things for us!" I have seen it work----in finances, for friends, for health, --- Faith that God will always provide as long as we take it to Him, give it to Him... & not some of it but ALL of it! That doesn't mean that sometimes i won't be discouraged or get my hopes up, but when that happens just shake it off and keep going, pray, and know God has an amazing FUTURE in HIM planned for me.... Doctors have said that they see no problem in my carrying a child, family has said they wanted me to wait to heal, friends are praying that im next, not so nice people have said "to get over it," but God tells me he has a plan to prosper me to give me a hope and a future and for me i know that includes giving Natalee a little brother (hopefully) or sister... for anyone reading this who is going thru a similar if not the same situation just know Jeremiah 29:11 can be applied to everything... even a Government test that i should have studied a little bit for today ;) Nothing is too BIG or too small for God... the Ultimate Problem Solver.
"Keeping our eyes on Jesus, the source and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that lay before Him endured a cross and despised the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of God's throne." Hebrews 12:2
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